dear future this,

I’m back at this again, and I can’t rightly explain as to the why. perhaps therein lies the maddening compulsion we creative intellects prosper in such wanton mischief…we will never know the why, and we don’t need to. just as alchies at an AA meeting tell themselves they’re an alcoholic like its a damning fate, so too writers + artists.

we have an addiction also, albeit healthier on our livers, but with a propensity for excessive wine consumption 🍷 ourselves. though I think it cliche and retarded that the world at large thinks meritage is our sole muse. if booze cruising was there’d be way more artists and writers making it! haha. yet I’m sober enough to curb the seductive domination of enslavement to these passions. and I do not look down upon alchies, they went all in in destroying themselves. just like every other fumbling towards insanity which has America in the grips of  its dark embrace. and people failed to realize this insanity isn’t normal. yet the struggle certainly is real: mortals trying to convince others emphatically that insanity is the only normal normal that exists. and its not them who is coo coo for coa coa puffs its you. and if you go against the grain of the Borg hive consciousness, well you’re a very bad individual who really is real cray cray. the insane have branded sane people insane, isn’t that some heady shit!?!

the truth is no longer available, its a inconvenient thing that everybodies fighting to control their misinterpretations of it. there is a death cult at play, one which argues no its not them its you, ya’ll are evil + crazy + stupid + weird. we’re mad b/c you’re taking away ‘migrants’ (illegal aliens). while Obama did it on the downlow we didn’t care, but b/c Trump is now we do suddenly. nevermind the fact that Minnesota became new Somalia overnight. whatever it takes to take your eyes off the unprecedented fraud in the history of the entire nation. why there’s not heads on the chopping block yet is curious. zero accountability, when the targets are painted in laser rays. for fucks sake we need someone like Edgar Hoover to come along and play some Darth Vader on these corrupt pos embezzlers, political parasites, and power thievery corporations. but bc people are mostly dumb, indifferent, lazy, stupid, and easily distracted the masterminds don’t get what they deserved. just as Obummer’s retarded self bailed out the corrupt Walstreet crooks like they were his besties (probably so).

I can’t talk much about anyting real much less politics. since emotional idolatry is the new covid and there’s no booster shots to inoculate your ass with, not that I’d entrust myself with such untested, dangerous poison to begin with lolz.